I'm a HUGE whiner....

Yeah, I pretty much am. Just over the past few weeks I've noticed it more. And its probably because over the past few weeks I've been whining more. There are so many stupid little things in my life that I have to feel all down and feel bad for myself. Like some of the bigger ones are "I don't have enough friends" and "Why can't I be normal and just have a boyfriend?" or "My family is so huge!", just really dumb things like that. And believe me, the list goes on and on. But a couple days ago it just kinda hit me, what do I really have to whine about? I have friends! I have great friends! I don't need to whine about not having enough. What about kids who seriously do not have any? And I know what those kids feel like, I was there not too long ago and it sucked. But I have friends now, it's all cool. And if I want more why not be friends with kids who don't have any? And that could be the begining to a great thing! Like what if this kid doesn't know God? I, Carrie Davis, could help him/her come to know Christ! I can't imagine how awesome you'd feel after sharing Jesus with someone and them becoming a Christian. But I guess thats something else to work on, letting Christ show through you. Toughy? It shouldn't be. And probably isn't, hopefully when I'm done whining I can let His light show through me.

"Why can't I be normal and just have a boyfriend?". I mean come on, Carrie! This is like the dumbest one of all! But it's true, this is one huge bad mother I fight with. On one hand I have TV, Magazines and Friends telling me I need one. But then I know what I think of it and what my parents think of it. But why must it be so hard? But I know that God has a plan for me. He wouldn't put it in my head the way he did, like not agreeing with dating(at least at such a young age). So I'm pretty sure Gods telling me I don't need to date. So I guess I need to learn to accept that.

"My family is so huge!" haha more like "Why is my family so huge!?".
Yeah, I complain about this one a lot. And it gets worse every time my mom has another kid. And it's not like I don't love them or anything. I really don't know why I complain about it actually. Is it because I don't always get the attention? No, cuz I don't like getting all the attention(it makes me feel uncomfortable). Is it cuz I don't get my own room? No, cuz I think I'd be scared to sleep in a big room all by myself. Yeah kids make fun of me, but what new? Haha I get made fun of all the time for being home schooled and having a large family but has that ever bothered me? No. So I really don't know.

But I just think that in the past few days God has really been showing me all that I have to be thankful for. And been telling me not to be so greedy or such a whiner. And maybe all these things that I need to work on will bring me closer to God. That, my dear friends, would be awesome!

Peace out, home frawwwgs